Tick Tock Tick Tock

This waiting game is killing me. I am trying to just except the fact that I have no control over when this little one arrives, and am trying to enjoy what little time we have left as a family of three. I am just really uncomfortable.

Anyways, I wanted to brag about how many songs B man know now. Its so awsome to hear him sing. His voice is like a cross between Fergie and Jesus (haha). Seriously though, it is so darn cute and sweet. He knows Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, Baa Baa Black Sheep, ABC's, Skip to my Lou, and Happy Birthday. He is also able to count to ten. He is so smart that it just amazes me the stuff/stories he tells (when I can translate them). Another funny thing he does is, he'll ask about something, for instance, an airplane. We'll say, "Yes, B that is an airplane and it flies high in the sky". Then he'll say to the other parent the same thing one of us just told him, like it was his orginal thought. Its funny because both of us are sitting right there. Its almost like he is playing the game telephone. When he gets really excited to tell us something he always goes into this frantic state. For example, he'll say "mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mom the sky blue". He says our name like one hundred times before he can spit out his thought. And if you ever had to watch your mouth before, its ten fold now. He has repeated damn and a few other words now. Yikes.

One of my favorite things he says and does is "hold hand" and then he grabs my hand. It pretty much melts my heart although I a pretty sure he does it when he knows I am about to leave him so that I feel extra guilty. I am sure going to miss these precious moments. Never knew one could love someone so deeply.

I hope I don't rush by these moments with him or the new baby for that matter.

Oh and before I forget, at my 38 week appointment I am a tight 3 cm dilated and still 50% effaced, my fundal height is 36cm and I gained 3 pounds. That is a total of 17 pounds this pregnancy. At this point I would be surprised if this baby weighs more than B did. But I'm still not done cooking it yet so we'll see.

Ding the fries are done!

I mean I am done! But I am not, but I am, but not right now, but may in a little bit. That is how confused I am. One part of me wants this baby out because I am so tired and just done. Another part of me is trying to enjoy this time because I won't be doing this again (at least we are 90% sure of that) plus, now I know how much more tired I will be when the baby gets here. Why isn't there something out there that allows us to not be pregnant for the last two weeks, our baby is put into an artificial womb, then us parents get to go on a good relaxing vacation, and when we come home he take the baby out and enjoy?!?! I would be the richest woman in the world if I could invent that, (oh and it would be covered by insurance). I think our population would triple if that came true.

So, I go back to the doctor on wednesday and maybe some more progress will be made. I am hoping for 3 cm dilated and 90% effaced, then deliver on the 19th just like B. Oh the wishful thinking.

Everything right now is "oh, could this be it?" AND IT IS DRIVING ME NUTS!

36 week appointment

2 cm dilated and 50% effaced. These contractions that I have been feeling are doing something. Oh and baby has dropped too.