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I don't know what to call this post so the question marks is what it gets til I think of one.

Welcome James Matthew Fincham to the family. 7lbs 15 ounces and 20 inches long! Born 8/20/09. Dark blond hair and cute as can be! You may be thinking what a great experience for me to see my nephew born right before my own! I say "FALSE", no really it was an interesting experience, I am just a little emotional right now. I cried a few times, mostly when my sister did and when she was crowning or the shoulders were coming out and she screamed a little (I don't know which part since I was looking out the window the whole time). If you don't know by now I am so scared to give birth. I realize I have a low tolerance for pain and to know that you are about to experience the most painful event a human can go through and still survive, freaks me out! I also know it will be worth it when I see my baby for the first time.

The debate around the house is who will be in the room during delivery (why Mike even has a say is beyond me, considering it is not even his body). While in the delivery of my nephew I realized how exposed you are, and no matter how hard I tried not to look, I still saw stuff. Also, I am a pretty shy person and have a little phobia about being naked (that has improved since I do what I do for a living, at least seeing others naked). So the thought of having other people in the room is also weighing heavy on my mind. If my mother wasn't a labor and delivery nurse, I'm not sure I would have her in the room. Now my sister is tempting me with great candid shots she got of my other sister, my monther in-law expressed how badly she wants to be in the room, and all I can think of is AHHHHH what do I do. As of right now it will just be my mom and Mike. But I don't want to hurt any ones feelings or regret not capturing the moment either. All I can do is try not to think about it right now.
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On a lighter note. I just wanted to jot down some good things about being pregnant since I do talk a lot about the crappy parts. So here goes...

1. When you first find out, but you can't believe it and you take multiple tests. Keeping it a secret between the two of us before we told people was fun.
2. Telling family
3. Feeling and seeing it kick for the first time.
4. Hearing the heart beat for the first time/everytime
5. New clothes
6. Seeing your baby start to look human
7. When people first start noticing your pregnant and not just chunky.