The waiting game sucks!

Went to my doctors appointment today and was hoping for some progress because I had another night of no sleeping due to contractions and back pain. Of course, no progression. I guess that doesn't necessarily mean much, but if I had dilated more that just means that much less to do in the hospital. We are trying everything to speed up the process. I will admit, I have mixed feelings about giving birth. One part of me wants to just enjoy my freedom now, and cherish this moment in time (feeling him move, looking at my belly, and not having to share him). On the other hand, I want to meet him so bad, see him, snuggle him, and have my body back to myself. I'm both excited for this change in my life and nervous at the same time.

I did get a doctors note to stop working if I so choose to do so. I voiced my concern about working with a large population of infected patients with H1N1 flu this close to the end. It scares me to know how high of a risk I am. Plus, now I am worried about visitors to the hospital when I do have my son. I hope people will be very conscience of what they touch and if they fill like they might be getting sick, STAY HOME! Hopefully I get my vaccine soon! So many things you worry about when you become a mom.

We just sit and wait now...